Almost everyone has an idea of how they want to live their lives.
Well it is certainly most difficult for a semi bipolar person to decide which life they want to live, the loud and exciting one or the calm and peaceful one?
For me I want best of both the worlds. I want the adrenaline rush and the soothing quietness.
I want a high life luxury condo on top floor which faces the sea or the skyline. I want all the buzzing parties with thumping music. I want the dance, laughter and tears of joy. I want the speed, the ecstasy and numb feeling you get when your feet are throbbing in protest. I want the lights and long endless journeys.
I want to work harder. I want to put in evenings and nights to something I am passionate about. I want to make a difference with my work. I want people to know me cause of my work. I want to drain cups and cups of caffeine and have purple bags under my eyes cause of all the sleepless nights I have put in my work. I want to be acknowledged, respected and appreciated for my work.
I want to soak myself in rain. I want to breathe in the sweet smell of wet earth and queen of night. The small cottage at countryside serves as my house with a beautiful garden and a swing. Bougainvillea, Jasmine and Honey Suckle spread all over my little cottage. My little cottage with a small library and huge windows & light curtains, so the soft morning light streams in. By nightfall I want to see millions of stars strewn artlessly across the dark sky.
Things that I want and things that I can have. Only we can wish.